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Mystery is awesome. It contains the seed of life! The power of the unknown gifts us joyful surprise, anticipation and passion, if we allow it. Most often we contract in the face of the unknown. Our body tenses up for fear of being out of control, the uncertainties of no guaranteed outcome, the fear of disappointment. But if we relax into trust, our very being is able to flow with the mystery and we heighten our capacity to receive, our experience of excitement, celebration and noticing life’s miracles.
Every moment we are in the process of creation. We are creating our lives through our thoughts, actions and unconscious beliefs. To create with the most power we must surrender to the mystery, let go of the specific form our creation is required to take in order to please us. In our society outcomes are often forced to meet a specific agenda, scheduled, pre-selected in detail, like a travel itinerary. But when we allow room for the mystery, the outcome while unpredictable has more juice and life to it. Magic happens!
At the New Year most of us reflect on what we have accomplished in the past year and identify what we would like to experience in the coming year. How do we come to a strong inner-knowing that our intentions, the visions of what we want to create in our life, are coming to us?
To clear the path for this level of trust, I find myself navigating a cacophony of thoughts and feelings. Observing what is supporting or in the way of my freedom to receive. Where I am judging others and myself? Where I am giving away my power? Where I am withholding from myself or choosing fantasy over the truth of what is? Where I am failing to see the vastness of options before me because my sight is focused on what I lack rather than what I have? Where I am allowing the wants, needs and demands of others to override my wants, needs and self-care?
Where I am in avoidance of my feelings because noticing them doesn’t feel good? Where do I choose to check-out rather than check-in with myself? Where do I see not getting what my heart desires as some failure on my part? Where am I at peace and where am I unsettled? Where am I in resistance to things that are good for me? Where do I fail to surrender because I want it my way?!? Where do I feel angry at another or judge them without acknowledging my anger at myself and self-judgment? Where is it I crave escape and allow it to dominate my free time?
Where do I try and fail and try and succeed and keep pushing my edge to expand past the discomfort? Where do I have courage without noticing it and fearlessly press into the vast unknown? Where do I take risks and feel empowered? Where do I light a fire to transform energy, warm the hearth, or light the path? Where do I see the non-physical universe and witness another soul’s journey? Where do I connect with another? Where do I wake up and realize I was never sleeping? Where do I feel alive?
These questions are meant to shed away the layers between my expectations and the fruition of my desires. I trust that my visions will manifest in my life. Why? I have seen it happen countless times. I feel them coming. I feel the joy and it feels as if they are already the truth of my experience even though they haven’t yet taken physical form. I don’t know what form they will arrive in or when. That’s the mystery. Yet I trust their arrival, as reliable as the seasons change. The more I take actions to show the universe my intent, that I’m willing to receive with full surrender. The more my experiences are better than I ever would have imagined.
A Dark Night of the Soul is a period of time or season that many of us on the spiritual journey find ourselves in once or more in our life. The Dark Night comes unexpectedly through some change or experience that causes you to question all that you’ve known to be true. It is a time where you find yourself feeling disillusioned with a temporary loss of faith. What you trusted appears in a new light to have been temporary and incomplete. The foundation you’d built your perception of the world on shifted and in that shift you found yourself unsettled. What felt meaningful feels meaningless, what seemed solid looks unreliable, what you thought you knew to be true comes into question.
Walking through a Dark Night of the Soul period requires intense resilience. It pushes your edge, uses every ounce of your psychological capacity for survival. The Dark Night can be triggered by things like divorce, physical illness, loss of a job, loss of a loved one, loss of a role or an aspect of your identity. Where it takes you is a profound void that may feel like depression, hollowness, hopelessness, emptiness and doubt.
How do you endure this mental and spiritual struggle? What gets you through the void and back to a point of inner-peace? I’ve found that, the healing and growth the Dark Night has to offer comes through the following conscious choices:
- Acknowledging that the cycle of living in the unknown has purpose.
- Calling on your inner-guidance with much more frequency and consistency.
- Moving your body to allow the cycle to stay in motion on the physical level.
- Seeking support through the council of spiritual mentors who have walked the path before.
These practices of self-care give you strength to get through the darkness and help you make your way to a season of light again.
The Dark Night may feel like a stuck place in your external life or a place where everything is in chaos. However stagnant it feels or looks on the outside, it is an active season for the soul. The soul is in chrysalis. It has gone within and on may require you to be unconscious about some of the deep work underway. Literal transformation, upgrading your soul-body agreement to integrate all the bits-and-pieces you’ve been learning at the deepest level.
Some levels of processing are beyond what you can or are ready to consciously “see” as they transform. You have to be patient and trust the inner activity. You have to ask your mind to be patient, as it seeks to fix what appears to be broken, wants a solution, demands answers. Let the Dark Night chrysalis evolve you from the caterpillar to the butterfly.
The void has you fear a total loss of Self. It has you feel alone and as if you may have lost all of the ground you had gained through your conscious growth, commitment to self-awareness and health. In reality, there is no loss, at the other side of this deeply challenging soul searching cycle you find ourselves renewed, more mature, with an inner radiance that transcends your prior light.
The Dark Night is a soul crisis. It pushes you to the full extent of what you feel your soul is capable of handling. It may temporarily break your spirit. On the other side, the gift of a journey through the void in a Dark Night of the Soul is the discovery of your inner strength, a greater level of daily inner-peace, plus an updated alignment of your body and soul.