I was at a local watering hole on the shore of Lake Austin last week, with a co-worker and some of his friends. The topic of my hearts work, clairvoyant reading, came up in conversation. As has happened many times in my life, my colleagues curiosity set off a peppering of questions, doubts and a challenge. How is it possible to do that? Prove it!
I was in my last two days of taking a month off from seeing clairvoyant clients to allow spiritual renewal for myself. Austin was icing on the cake, full of inspiration, a city after my own heart, where you can take a “sweaty yoga” class from 10:30 pm till midnight on Friday night. It was perfect timing to have my soul’s vocation questioned.
When my commitment to intuitive seeing and healing was affronted with a demand “read me now!” it was tempting to put a wall up, resist the intrusion, just say NO. But I found myself closing my eyes in a packed open-air bar asking my colleague to say his name three times, and then ask me a question.
Explaining the way I see doesn’t energetically answer the question of what it means to be a psychic who doesn’t read the future, rather reads what is blocking people at a soul level from creating what they want in life to help them heal. Understanding it is more experiential than analytical. When I opened my eyes after 10 minutes of witnessing his soul, moving energy and being in the meditative state, I felt great. I looked at my colleague and his entire countenance had shifted. He was softer, had opened-up and no longer doubted. He was still curious but not demanding.
One of the root lessons in my spiritual path has been learning to have healthy boundaries around my sense of intuitive awareness. Healthy boundaries includes taking time off to renew, saying “no” when we need to, not violating a person’s boundaries by psychically reading them without their consent. It also means learning to not automatically empathically feel everyone around you and avoiding the temptation heal people who haven’t asked for it. It means, distinguishing what energy is me and my experience, and what is yours and your experience.
As an intuitive our nature is to sense what is beyond the five senses in the environment around us. It can be tricky not to take that sense of awareness too far by taking the information personally when it has nothing to do with us. Or by matching it so deeply we mistake the emotional energy or physical pain as our own.
I responded to my colleagues demand to “prove it” because I felt relaxed, spontaneous and willing to share this part of myself with someone authentically curious. I also wanted to observe myself reading with permission in the cacophony of a crowded bar and feel safe doing it. As a younger woman I did not have the trust in spiritual protection to hold my space in that environment.
We all experience intuition in slightly different forms. Some see images, some hear the voice of guidance, others feel sensations in the physical body, or prophetically see a specific future potential as destined. Regardless of how we know what we know, there is not a need to prove it to anyone. Our intuition is a gift of Divine guidance to help us through our personal experiences.
When we share that information with others as a professional we will occasionally be challenged by clients or strangers. This challenge comes to strengthen our seniority in what we know. The less we doubt the validity of what we see, the more we can smile and be amused when others challenge us with their doubts.